Success Story - B. B.
First I want to start out by apologizing to all of the students and staff. It was very selfish of me not to return for graduation, or at least write some kind of speech. As we all know this day is not just about the graduate, but all of the students, staff, and the program as a whole. The reason I left so fast was because I had a bad taste in my mouth about some misunderstood accusations. I took them personally and was offended. I have realized now that it wasn't a big deal and I am really the one who blew things out of proportion. Again, sorry to all.
But enough about that. Many of you do not know me because I completed the Narconon program on January 16, 2008. My name is B. B. I started stealing bottles of wine from grocery stores when I was 12 years old. I would take the wine, and marijuana that my friend Pete would steal from his parents and then we's go to the bush behind my house and get wrecked a few days a week.
By age 13, I had used Cocaine on numerous occasions and would use Acid on a weekly basis. We have all been there, thousands of dollars in our pockets and a burner in the waist, or the countless, useless, wasted nights in jail. We all know the same story.
I tested positive for Cocaine in the US Army in June 1997. After counseling, a loss of about $2,000 in pay and a reduction in rank, I managed to stay away from drugs for the remainder of my enlistment. Notice I didn't say drugs and alcohol. I never understood the saying drugs and alcohol. It was my understanding that alcohol was a drug. Nevertheless, I was drinking a lot on a daily basis.
Once I was released from the Army and back around my people, it was on. After arriving back in Florida, I allowed my friends to introduce me to Heroin. About 1 year later I nearly died from a heroine overdose in March of 2000. After some counseling, I managed to stay clean and sober for about 6 months. This time I stayed away from everything. Even cigarettes. However, just like every other time, once I get back on and get cleaned up, it's only a matter of time.
I overdosed again in September of last year with Crack. I was ready to die. My girlfriend at the time wanted to call the ambulance. I told her let's just let what happens happen. That is a very screwed up way of thinking. I don't know who was looking out for me that night, but I do know that I was one push from death. I could feel my heart thumping around in my chest, off beat with no rhythm.
It was the scariest night of my life. I am so glad I never have to go through that again. I never have to be scarred like that again. None of you have to be scarred again. There is another way to live, a better way. I have so much peace, clarity and serenity in my life right now. You all can, and will have this too, if you want it.
So many times on so many different occasions while I was at Narconon I would hear different people talking about how they couldn't wait to get out so they take that first banger or that first blast. "It will be so good because our bodies are so clean. It will be like the first time." Sure, maybe that is true, but what’s different from any other time?
You’re going to end up in the same place as before. Don't just play that first scene out in your head. Don't just think about that first hit. Think about the last one. Check out time at the hotel. The sun is up and you don't have any more money, no more drugs. You are lonely, and you don't have anywhere to go. THE PARTY IS OVER! Think about that part. Don't make it glamorous, because it isn't. Why did I keep going back after every time? Why did I want to be high all the time? More importantly, why would I go back after I would clean up and see a better way of life?
That is what I had to figure out while I was at Narconon. That is what you all have to figure out. For me it was my past and a fucked up childhood where everything went wrong. Thank you Vince, Phil and Maria for helping me realize it. I want to say thank you to all of the staff and student body for helping me. All of you helped me and my program in one way, or another. For the new guys who are just getting to Narconon, or the ones whom have been there for a while.
Remember how good everything feels. How good it feels not to want or need. How good it feels to have control of your life. How good it feels to be able to look another person in the face. How good it feels to laugh. I don't know about any of you, but I laughed more in my 3½ month stay than I did in the previous year. Listen to what everyone is telling you, clear your mind and conscious, and be strong.
I love you all. Good luck.
B. B.
Graduate of
Narconon Trois-Rivieres
