Drug Treatment & Alcohol Rehab

The Crystal Meth Plague - Overcoming the Lethal Drug

From what I heard, you were on that drug for a certain period of time, could you tell us something that happened between your mother and you that you would care to share?

All of it was terrible. All of it was hurtful. The one time that sticks out the most was when I had no money one time. My mom had some money, and she wouldn't give it to me. So I stood over her, and I told her that I was going to kill her if she didn't give it to me. She gave me the money and I left.

Did she say anything?

What's the point? Look at the size of me. My mom was more scared than anything.

When on a crystal high, what is one of the worst events that you can remember? It was probably my third year into doing crystal meth, and my body was lacking sleep, and you're not functioning properly anymore. The brain just starts playing tricks on you, and I started to get meth-induced schizophrenia. I started to go crazy: everybody was out to get me, everybody were cops. People walked down the street and if they touched their nose, I thought they were signalling to somebody. I actually went crazy; I went completely nuts.

1.6 Severe Behavioural Changes

Did you do anything crazy on crystal meth?

When people are on crystal meth, eventually become very volatile and they can hurt people. They can snap very easily for no reason. On any given day, I really could have hurt somebody, supremely bad, but my choices were either to hurt somebody or get high. I mainly chose to get high. I had no regards for human life.

Did you actually beat somebody up?

I used to be a debt collector. I used to hurt people badly. I used to fight for fun. For some reason, I liked getting hit and hitting others back. It was just like a rush. People collect stamps, people collect hockey cards and little girls play Barbie, and I liked to fight.

I've hurt quite a few people. Never killed anybody, but I've done a lot of messed up things on crystal meth, for friends. If someone ever got in my friend's way, I was the first one to be there, making sure the buddy wasn't ever going to do it again. .

How did crystal meth affect your trust?

When you're a drug dealer, you have no friends. Even your best friend, he's an acquaintance, you can't trust him. You can't trust anybody on any drugs, not only crystal meth. Meth magnifies the trustworthiness factor out the wall. I'll see my friend look the wrong way at me and I'll think, "He wants to mess with me? He wants a piece of this?" Did he ever give me a reason to think like that? No. They're my drugs; he's not going to get them. That's how you think; you're irrational. There's not a single rational thought in your head, whatsoever. I took coke and I could think rational to a certain extent. I took crack and I could think rational to a certain extent. Weed, I could think rational to a certain extent. Alcohol, I was never rational on that, but with crystal meth, nothing whatsoever.

Did your change in behaviour somehow help you realize that you were addicted to crystal meth?

I couldn't admit that I was a junkie. I couldn't admit that I had a problem. Everybody said, "You're turning into a junkie Will," and I would respond, "I'm fine, I'm alright." But then my behaviour started to change and the days got longer. The weeks ended up being actual full weeks. It did help, since as soon as I realized that I had a problem, I went into rehab.

1.7 Recognizing a Drug Addiction and the Steps Towards Rehabilitation

What triggered you to come to the Narconon rehab?

I had been up for 6 days, and I went to go to the bathroom. My thoughts, my perception on life, just everything is completely distorted. Everything looks fuzzy. I wasn't making any sense when I was talking. I then looked in the mirror. It was like I had a moment of clarity in my vision for a second, and I looked in the mirror and looked at what I was turning into. I called a medical detox, real quick, just so I could have a 10-day detox to find a place where I could really situate myself. I eventually ended up at Narconon.

So you eventually got clean. Congratulations on that. How did you do so? For how long?

It will be 2 years this August [2006].

Could you describe your experience at Narconon?

The staff here, the way I was, the way I came, they were very patient with me. They gave me many more chances, probably a few more than other people should get out of rehab. They stuck by me. They just gave me a chance to live again. I learned a lot of things: how to deal with my anger and how to deal with the things that have happened to me in my life. They helped me deal with those issues and underline problems. I wasn't alright mentally, and they helped me become mentally stable.

Final Word From Will

The Narconon program is amazing. If you do have a loved one that does need help with crystal meth or any drug in general, it's definitely worth it. It's worth the investment to try to save somebody. Don't ever think that a son, daughter, grandson or anybody's life is not worth the money to try and save them. It has worked for me and many other people. It's a different perception on how drugs are being used. If you're ready to try any drugs out there, well you might as well try every way to save your life.

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